Wednesday, June 29, 2005 @12:48 am
dear NP concert band members, i know this is highly bitchy of me, but i dont really care now. (=
in case most of you have heard about this notorious individual who's dissed the band and put our band down like we're not even worth being put together, been dissing peee, publicising shintya's and my blog, and wanna read about it in her past blog entries, here's the blog entry:
http://mdmslleriah.blogspot.com/password: blackbonsai
oh btw NP band members, read like the recent archives after our concert date. i'm sure you'd find it entertaining. really.
oh well. dont worry, it's not that i dont have better things to do. i do, but this takes up only like say 5 mins? i guess that's not a lot huh? with that 23 hrs and 55 mins of the day i'm sure i accomplish quite a lot. 5 mins spared to publicise her blog, is really nothing. so dont worry about me. if i could, i'd say 5 mins is worth all this. really.
btw, well done on saying gals are catty. they are alright~ i'm sure cos you've shown a large portion of your catty nature to many of us. (=
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Tuesday, June 28, 2005 @2:29 pm
my friend's blog tells of some sad story.
to jason: sorry for putting off tonning for so long can! i feel super bad.. but these few weeks been too tiring and busy!! so many things going on! wells. after wasbe please maybe during the break okayy? i promise!!!
I feel kinda bad now. i dunno what i did. it seems like it's my fault that things turned out this way. but what did i do? they just wanted me to befriend you like i befriended them. and i did! and i pretty much liked you. i didnt know my existence would invoke such a reaction or response from you. frankly speaking, tho they weren't surprised, i was shocked. i genuinely thought we could be friends like the rest of them, and we would all be one happy family. but i guess not. you chose to make it that either i'm eliminated or you eliminate yourself. which of course, the latter happened.
why? i really dont know. the circle of friendship is big enough for everyone and anyone. she can accept your new close friend, why cant you accept hers? instead you give lots of excuses.. lots of them.. and it really shocked me. we're both of the same religion, worshipping and loving the same God. what difference is there between us then? why do u react this way?
i feel bad that u think i came between you two. am very sorry. i wish u could be a part of this tho. i really do.
anyway, i'm sitting in the clubhouse and rotting. been sitting here for the past hour or so. waiting for Peee, Kailin n Anne to finish. dunno who else is going. but yea! we're gonna watch initial D!! and i'm soooo sorry Lin! i forgot to bring camera!!!
breahhh..
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Friday, June 24, 2005 @5:51 pm
it's obvious, isn't it? u do go for girls with looks and body. both of which, you apparently don't see in me. (= it's okay.. to each his own. beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder what. i understand. lol.
to you, I'm uglier than a lot of people. uglier than this girl and uglier than that girl. being uglier is not enough.. i'm fatter too. right? u tell me how fat u think i am.. thanks a lot.
well. my confidence aint shattered tho. dont worry. i just think it's very interesting to meet someone like you.
you really are interesting. in fact. maybe i shouldn't have been so interested. maybe i shouldn't have been so inquisitive. but curiosity got the better of me. emotions got the better of me.
i think i got my own deserts? but i still am curious to why u treat me in this particular way. i'm very very interested to know. really. (=
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Thursday, June 23, 2005 @1:14 am
i'm sick i'm sick..
and i cant even get the rest i need. i feel like taking an MC. but i cant, i don wanna miss classes. awfully impt. then again. i feel so sick and tired.. sometimes i just have to skip classes. skipping class with no MC. aint good. but i need the time to rest..
whoaa.. God.. give me time!!
and heal me from my flu and annoying cough!!
thankss
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Sunday, June 19, 2005 @1:36 am
this girl, i tell you. she'd be the death of me.
I can't believe how immature this is getting CAN.
Seriously speaking, i've never met a bitchier 17 year-old. It's so apparent to me that she's trying to poke her nose into everything, have a say in everything, sound good with her "perfect english", and think that the whole world can't do anything about it. before anything, i "apologise" for thinking you were 18. not that it makes much of a difference. from the way you write, u damn well seem to wanna be recognised as an adult. (=
WELL i have something to say. YOU always say that if we're not happy then we shouldnt comment. well then, since WE are unhappy with what YOU say, surely YOU said something nasty about us, which in this case, YOU must have been unhappy with us to begin with, for YOU to comment about US. NOW THEN, since YOU typed some undesirable comments, cant WE throw the ball back in your yard now MISS? (=
It is stupid of me to address you as miss la. cos you don't earn any respect from me at all. and frankly, i don't care if you have any respect for me at all. however, why i address you as miss, is simply because i'm being sorta sarcastic la ya? you can tell right, from the way you refer to yourself, from the way you speak of yourself. I dont doubt your confidence level. Now all people see is how arrogant you are. I dont care if your band is good or bad miss riah.
No one really does. Everyone enjoys a band with good music standard, no doubt. But u forget that everyone enjoys a not so good band who puts in all effort into making the best music they can within a certain period of time, apart from other commitments. And Ms, if you cant appreciate that, you dunno the true meaning of music. (=
Stop speaking of everyone like they're some rotten rats when you are the one who's behaving like that rotten roach. no doubt, your grammar and vocab are pretty strong. ey, may i ask, where is your punctuation?
Not that my english is like the best around. But stop trying to outdo older people when you've just stepped into MI for say half a year? You HAVENT SEEN THE WORLD, girl.
And when your best buddy asks you to mince your words when u blog, u better take him damn seriously. He's your best bud, and u take his words for granted. HELLO? when ur best bud thinks there's something wrong with the way you write, obviously there's something REALLY wrong in there.
you deserve no privacy. passwords are there.. for simply no reason. if you don't want your blog to be known by all, firstly ur pw can be there. but if u start writing like you suffer from attention deficiency (which apparently you've been doing), you can't blame people for asking others to read your blog la. For GOODNESS' SAKE LA YOU'RE BLOGGING ON A PUBLIC DOMAIN!!!
ur stupid password doesnt protect much privacy does it? u wanna let pple read abt those you're bitching about, then please why are u talking about privacy and all? i don't understand. what's there to be private when you wanna do public bitching? if you think you're so great, you should have nothing to hide what. what's all that harping on privacy and pw being flashed all over the place?
before i end. although i dunno u personally. but if u cant take people dissing your friend (which u only THOUGHT they did but in fact did not), neither can i take people dissing my band. the band hadn't done anything to you. and seriously speaking, you're just dumb to keep dissing my band. i dont care if it was the past or the present, the fact is that you did. and even if i werent the secretary, i would still say this to you.
Lastly, don't look down on these people who don't do very well in english. I'm very sure that in terms of life skills and maturity, they're way above you. my millions of miles. really. you think that just because your english is good, people will be jealous? in that case there are others who are a lot better than you. go drool over those writers then. stop dissing people for no reason already. you say, dont read your blog if i dont like what you've written right? why dont you close this screen right now?
REMEMBER that YOU said THIS: not happy dont read la. not happy DONT COMMENT LA.
dear ms riah: please keep to your word then. (=
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Thursday, June 16, 2005 @7:49 pm
i guess that's what i'm feeling then.
i'd be okay. i promise. (=
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Wednesday, June 15, 2005 @12:40 am
how does a heartbreak feel?
all this time, things werent wad they seemed.
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Sunday, June 12, 2005 @5:09 am
Post concert blues once again. it ALWAYS happens. like ALWAYSSS.
PnC. was. considered. a. success. omg. i'm. lovin. it. missing. it.
I miss PnC alreadY!! it's 5am in the morning. and PnC ended abt say 7 to 8 hours
AGO. i was really sleepy just now. but peee and leeen and cheng woke me up. now i'm wide awake, they're sleeping. i cant sleep. there's a lot in my mind. i'm really tired due to all the activities.
but i'm not let off!! on tope of being in the band committee, i still have to worry abt radio and print journ, which i have to rush like mad. there's no time for radio, there's no time for print journ.. not that these are not priorities. but because concert was just last night. u know. it's my concert. no one elses. not the audience's. it's my band's. we put in so much so much effort into this. the committee slogged our way thru this whole period of time, ever since rondeau was over, to get this concert over and done with.
come to think of it, i really put in a lot for this band. i really am glad in some ways that i was given this chance. dont ask me why i like to be a slave. nono. it's not that. but the experience in organising something this big really is something to be proud of. u have no idea how diffidult it is running a concert solely based on students okay. it's not easy at all. what's more, as big scale as the concert this time round. and lucky we didnt slack and go to LT26. really.
pnc was just great. i had so much fun making so much noise with the clique aka. horn girls, shintya, trombones.
horn choir, according to many pple, wasnt very good when we played during the concert. after the concert, as the guests were leaving, we played one last last time. and mr tan tot it sounded very nice. oops. we really were too nervous. sad that zhong qing couldn't come. i hope we can play some time with him.
one thing that upset me, tho, was that my sis couldnt turn up. my cousin wasnt feeling well. i understand. not that i dont understand that there's camp laa. but seriously i was rather upset.. because, what kinda moral support am i getting from my own pple??? i nv felt so disappointed in my life that pple couldnt turn up you know. nessa was abt to give the extra ticket to mindy. and then mindy was afraid to go because our leader seemed upset. i know that camp shouldnt come out. but even if there's NO camp, YOU GUYS NEVER EVER TURN UP ANYWAY. u all tell me straight to the point that u don like band music. so u don come. and even if i don like what u guys are doing, i try my best to support all of u. but has anyone ever spared a thought for me? no. no one wished me all the best for my concert.
prolly a lot of pple didnt know i was having concert. what's more. finally someone is INTERESTED in what i'm doing and wants to attend the concert. but no. she doesnt wanna upset another party. poor sister of mine. she couldnt come cos no one would go with her. so disappointed was i that i really broke down before the concert. i was so excited that my sis was gonna come, and when i heard that mint was coming, i was even more glad. but neither turned up. i cried.. i really cried so badly. this kinda thing should nv happen just half an hour before the concert. u know? never. ever.
and u all claim to be my pple.
/can i say i'm totally infatuated? but if i havent specifically told you that i like you, don't think too much. (= \
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Friday, June 10, 2005 @12:28 pm
Well Well.
All alone in the clubhouse now. it's 5 and a half hours before the rehearsal starts. "Rehearsal, you say?" Yep! there's a rehearsal later on for our PnC tmr. Pops & Classics is
TOMORROW!!!
I'm like how excited! Received some really nice and encouraging words from my section's tutor yesterday. Zhong Qing is like the nicest tutor around. i bet the whole section is everywhere now, raving about what a super great person he is. (= he brough stop mute for me, lent fatt his mouthpiece and so on. and he msged us really nice stuff to encourage us! yep after which he replied my thanks by saying that
he'd wanna perform with us one day. HONOURED CAN?!!hmmm. so sectionals last night was a blast, tho i didnt play much. i just played a bit here and there. But it really was a pleasure working with Zhong Qing, as my whole section might say. (=
I really do hope we play well tmr. I'm just excited because we put in so much effort into perfecting our horn choir. It's not so much as perfect yet. but it's definitely miles better than before.
In any case, wish NP Concert Band all the best, people! We need these encouragements!
Hmm.. things will not change however you want it to change. U have to work for it. and maybe, just maybe, if we work towards it, we'd find our answer at the end of this tunnel. If only you would just put some effort into it.
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Monday, June 06, 2005 @11:17 am
woohoo.
had sectionals on friday. the second time with zhongqing. this time, with brian and szeto. woooot! it was great! we learnt a lot. and the horn choir really sounds a lot nicer. surprisingly, with the change of our right hand positions in the horn bell! amazing. okay.. and we kinda got reprimanded for not practising the way he told us to.. just that.. school's been killer. we really hadnt had the time. a bulk of the time i'm around the clubhouse, i'm rushing my sch work. yep. that's the case. Peee has to charter ard sch, home and hospital. fatt is running around sch, home, NP band, SWS band. the rest i dunno laa. leen has also been quite busy.
i love sectionals with zhong qing. and i'm not alone on that one. every single member of the section loves time spent with him during sectionals. the knowledge he imparts to us.. is vast.
well well. only 6 days to PnC. concert tickets still not selling very well. why? seems like everyone's either having camp or doing some other funny thing la. bad date is it? i dunno la. we practised really hard for this concert. and we're gona play well. (= a lot better than when i first came in to band. which was my first rondeau. really. this is like tons better..
anyways. went to the SWS youth concert yesterday. and fatt was right. he has a stronger horn section here in NP. NP BAND'S HORNS ROCK! and i mean it! whoaa. here, they joke abt only hearing fatt cos fatt is really loud? when i went for their concert, the horns couldnt be heard. it was like one unison sound, cos we could only hear lawfatt. it was distinctively lawfatt's sound. haha. quite funny.. but fatt bro, well done on sanchez solo! this saturday, we're counting on you yea~ haha..
i'm excited for PnC.. really.
so last call:
Pops and Classics Concert by Ngee Ann Polytechnic Concert Band 11 June, 7pm, at the Ngee Ann Polytechnic Convention Centre. Tickets are at $6 each only.
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Thursday, June 02, 2005 @7:04 pm
today's totally been a bad day. okay maybe not that bad. at least i got good visions. (= acting & directing was hellotta fun but i couldnt keep awake. due to some really late nights and early mornings. felt like i was gonna pass out at anytime. haha.
but. i really had a bad day, starting from morning.
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